why did I wait so long?

Am I the only woman on earth who has never had a professional massage? It's just another thing I never got around to.

So thanks to dear friends Donna and Pam (missed you Nancy) the appointment was made. I tried not to think about it. I was afraid that if I did I would start to obsess. We arrived the morning of and it was perfectly lovely.

It's an exercise in surrender. Stepping off the gerbil wheel and surrendering the never ceasing thoughts and obsessions to pure sensation. I needed to constantly remind myself to stop ruminating, thinking, obsessing so that I could be in the moment. And in the end, what was left was "Why did I wait so long?"